where is my mind?
all in my feelings :(

idk who’s going to read this or if anyone even will but I just want to veeeent. I’ve never truly talked to anyone about my cousin. I don’t think anyone really knows how heartbroken I was by what she had done. as cliche and “intervention”y as that sounds. for years and years I had been so envious of her and looked up to her SO SO much as a person it shattered my world when she got heavy on drugs and basically destroyed herself. I used to consider her my best friend (even though I’m sure she thought of me as her younger loser cousin back then, hah) and role model. she’s gorgeous, so sweet, funny, everyone she met loved her, and she was a fackin amazing artist!!! hanging out with her was always the highlight of my brunswick trips. blegh then she started dating this complete shithead named Anthony, idk what she even saw in the guy. I’m pretty sure it was him that got her into drugs but whatever I don’t know the complete truth. she lost like everything and iiiiiiii had to watch my precious older cousin who had SO SO SOOOOOO much going for her go down this sad and awful path. I’d hear stories about her, some of which she’s confirmed and some of which I’ve never asked her because I don’t have the balls/don’t want to know the answer. it just shattered my entire world to see someone I looked up to an awful lot fuck their life up for drugs/a guy. I always got scared when my mema or aunt Lisa called me because in the back of my mind I always thought they were gonna tell me she ODed or something awful. I just don’t even know how it got that bad. I wish I could go back in time and change things but this is life and these are the cards we were dealt. I just miss how close we used to be. I miss always hanging out and being silly as fuck with her. she was the best. now I don’t even know her. :( I hope she’s doing well and I hope she’s clean and sober and genuinely happy with her life. I guess I’m just all in my feelings because she posted a status earlier about having a terrible dream about something happening to me and told me she loved me and missed me so much. I wish she had even the slightest inkling of how much I miss her. :( blegh okay that’s
all.

notahoe:

reblog if u want a cute relationship like this 

notahoe:

reblog if u want a cute relationship like this 

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Harry outside their hotel in Newcastle about one hour ago


he’s gonna be really fucking hot when he grows up 😻

Harry outside their hotel in Newcastle about one hour ago

he’s gonna be really fucking hot when he grows up 😻

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oh you fancy huh?

oh you fancy huh?

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just keep swimming…………….

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this child is going to get away with murder!!!! daddy took her out of the time out he put her in. she’s got him wrapped fasho!! :3

this child is going to get away with murder!!!! daddy took her out of the time out he put her in. she’s got him wrapped fasho!! :3


honestly this is one of my favorite things to look at, i can stare at it forever and it just makes my head go numb and blank… it relaxes me soo much. 

honestly this is one of my favorite things to look at, i can stare at it forever and it just makes my head go numb and blank… it relaxes me soo much. 

cheeeeeeeeeese 🐭

cheeeeeeeeeese 🐭